Transgender-Pride

I am proud to be myself. I am proud to say that I am an trans female. AroAce person

Tysm for letting me Join this Group, My new 3rd Oc Retus is Both Transexual/Agender.

Thank you so much for accepting my request to join this community. I hope to have the opportunity to chat with others who are transgender. For me it has been a long and difficult road but one that I will conquer.    

I don t want yo be here.

thanks for admite me!

So I looked for a place to chat with other transgenders but no dice. I mean an actual active chatroom.

So yeah I'll just drop this here. Please skip this rant unless you want to talk, but please, no pity parties.


WARNING. If you do not want to read something depressing, especially close to the holidays, then please don't read below.

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After coming out as a trans male to my parents it's been rough.
My mother tries to understand what she obviously doesn't. It hurts but I know she's trying. I won't and can't blame her.
My dad is very religious. He says he has an open mind but he tells me I'm brain washed. He tells me that me doing this defies nature, made me feel like an abomination.
I have a mother that tells me to tolerate my fathers beliefs...
I have a father who's beliefs dehumanize me...
Mom says no one would want to date a trans man.
I have friends who tell me they love and support me though but I don't feel I deserve it.
I mean, I used to be the type of person... Someone who hated the lgbt. I've said so many homophobic things.
Honestly, I feel discovering my true gender identity now after having been against the lgbt community. It's Karma, and I accept it.

I have no one to talk to right now. I want to call my mom but if I do she'll complain that I am being depressing so close to Christmas. I can't call dad for obvious reasons... I feel anyone else won't take me seriously in my family.
I just hate putting on a fake smile when I'm around my father just so my mom's happy. She tells me it's to keep the peace in the family but... For who?
This is the kind of 'love' I've experienced from family. From friends however, I guess it's different. They're wonderful. Friendly, kind... but I can't bring myself to believe any of them really care anyway. Still, I'm just glad I had them at all though.

So yeah, this was really hard to type since... It bothers me when someone is concerned about me, and a lot of times people are when I bring up my problems. It just makes me uncomfortable.
I just wanted to vent really.
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There, got that off my chest.